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No surprises.

It is of no surprise to me that there are so many athiests around. I found myself using words in my head trying to call out to the “guy in the sky” today. Of course these things simply allow me to be open to getting a reply but its not supposed to be used as an online complaints portal. Its just so that I can be expectant of a reply, to wait and to hear. I need to remember Love, (God) is Spirit.

These days I am becoming more aware of material living. The sheer amounts of money passing around me yet having nothing to do with me… I am told I must receive a vaccine booster. The cost to me is free, yet money moves above me and around me at every turn from the office receptionist to the government payment to the owners, investors and of course to the stakeholders of the pharmaceutical companies each paid because I said “yes”.

I am a cog in a machine which they will remove when they find a faster way to get cash.

I am called to redeem that view,  somehow to make it metaphysical, we all are and I think we all know something isn’t right. But isn’t right with what?

Many Churches cash in on the fact that Mary said “yes” at the Annunciation. Yet Churches at a local level simply “Love” and dont really care about where the Denomination invests money. Do they need to?

A song suddenly popped into my mind “Going Nowhere” by Lena Zavaroni. The lyrics say that ” and we’re asked to hold the world together, make it happen, give it Children who in turn are going nowhere.”

I have no choice over the vaccine booster, if I dont take it they will stop me from travelling, and its looking like in the future we will have no choice in this matter.

It is clear that the cold opinions of regulation which are enshrined in our laws dominate us so I will do what they ask of me.

A smile or kind word from the nurse at the time of injection redeems the whole system into something joyful, for “Love is the window through which we see God” (St Augustine).

I returned home from London last night. All is well.

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1 John 8-10

There are numerous Bible quotes about being “perfect”. But the above reminds us that human thinking is not perfect.

“Be ye perfect as your Father in heaven….”. Is another one.

Many of these texts have been used to hurt us by the judgement of the Church and by the judgement of others. They discovered we weren’t perfect in their eyes.

Much of the new testament was written to encourage people, the letters and epistles often directly told about unrest, politics and bitter battles between “the saints” on issues they were called to leave, such as circumcision or the differences between Peter and Paul.

Human life can never be perfect, and clearly it never was.

We find the Divine, moment by moment, listening to the still small voice

Redemption in the literal sense should raise us higher, yet clearly it didn’t for the early Saints or for us.

We are redeemed only as we grow into our new identity and no amount of wishing it will make it happen quicker.

In the silence we hear Him, that gentle voice telling us “all is well”. Let us not beat ourselves because of a lack of human perfection, let us claim our reality. Love

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This has to be one of the most misunderstood points of religion. We have all had moments where we cry out to God and nothing happens….many people who are left disappointed walk away: for them they say “it doesnt work”.

But what if prayer only flows one way, Love which flows down, not petitions up. If we are provided for, with everything, we need to look around and see it, not look up and plead for it.

That doesnt mean that human prayer is useless, even though our prayers are not heard by a superhuman man on a throne, our pleading and yearning does serve a purpose, it prepares us to realise the answer, to open our minds to wait or to see for the gentle answer which is revealed to us not given to us anew.

The Christian science movement does not allow any vocal prayer directed at a “perhaps or maybe,” God because God is defined as being without a Godhead….there is no Deity or person to pray to. The idea is these types of prayers lower God to something manlike, not raising us up to something Godlike.

Sadly I have lost many friends over the years who cannot understand why I dont completely abandon organised religion. People who feel that Catholicism is a waste of time as tha Deity is supposedly a being who makes decisions based on his mood that day. But yet listening to Science and Health and Bible recitations at a CS service has to be one of the dullest services on the face of the planet and then there is the money and the board meetings, mind games and fights. The truth is that Catholicism cannot escape Liturgy, they are trapped by it and CS services are locked into a victorian style service which also cannot be changed.

Yet God does not see denomination, he doesnt see Christian Science and another church called presbyterian or whatever, he does not have a Godhead to conceive such trivial man made divisions, He is Love.

We should never mistake organised religion for God nor should we write off vocal prayer as simply useless. Both have their purposes they help us to feel we are doing something, at the same time helping a community to grow.

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We live in what some might call a very patriarchal culture. It seems that politics and governance are in the first place controlled by men and where things are not controlled by men, there seems to be a discrepancy with how much women are paid compared to men doing the same job. It is almost instilled into us that the outward parts of society are controlled and played out by men.

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Unity and Oneness

The human mind tends to break itself up into different parts, allowing us to only glimpse things through very small ideas or mental images. It does not quite give us the full picture of Divinity with us. It has been created from the dust (false opinions) and cannot represent who we really are or what we are. These false sparks often lead to judgement of others and allow us to be gods over a kingdom where we believe good and evil exist for our sole purpose to sit in judgement. Creating a world for ourselves far more devious and complex than the one before with each judgement reaching out like tentacles touching those around us. A world of illusion based on hearsay, time honoured beliefs and simply false conclusions.

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Catholicism and Christian Science

Like most 19th Century Churches, Christian Science has been unwilling or unable to find any kind of tolerance or good within Catholicism. Part of the reason is because of the timeframe from which CS emerged. Catholicism in those days was not the Catholicism of today. It was before the modernisation of the Church in the 60s with Vatican II and indeed Vatican I had just ran from 1869-1870 with it´s best known decision to declare the Pope infallible. There were many reasons to dislike it in those days, both politically and socially.

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